Termenung

 Whatever happening right now buat aku berfikir. Am I being too lenient towards people? Aku bukan nak mengungkit ke apa la kan. But kalau nak take aku for granted tu, cover-cover la sikit. I can see through you. I know, that's how people behave. But still. Aku tak boleh dah nak tolerate orang cam ni. But if that's how the world works, I'm out. I'm just gonna shut myself out from the world and let them be because I know, nothing I do, how much I whine about it, things gonna be the same. 

I tried to think positive. Ignore je la dorg tu. But let's be honest, where do they get the audacity to act like nothing's happened? I can ignore them if they can ignore me too but they did not! Call me, texted me macam la kita ni bestfriend. Uhhhh... I am sorry, who are you again?

A friend tak kan treat kawan dia macam ni, let alone bestfriend. You only need me when you need something, or someone to talk. Where in the hell are you when I need someone? Ooops.. forgot. I have grown used to it that I don't need anyone to tell whenever I am in need. I just called when I need someone to rant. The rest? It's in my plate. I can handle that much. 

Let me tell you something. What I am trying to do right now is growing up. Be tough. So that I can defend myself. So that I can protect those I love from some idiotic like you who think that they can trample over us. If I'm still sitting still and still naively led by you in your game, it won't make any differences. I'm still gonna get trampled on. I will do all I can to turn the table. Make it my game with you still thinking that the game is yours and you gonna win this. Because when you lose the game, you lose it hard. So, if you think you can take me for granted and make me your puppet, forget it. That ship sails long time ago.